life...

Wow it has been months since I have posted or written about my life at all.

We spent some time in Michigan and it has been fantastic. If you have ever thought of going to Northern Michigan it is well worth it, I fell in love with Leland and cant wait to go back!

Last month I had surgery on my knee and have been sitting around until I get some kind of approval to get back to running. It has been a very hard process for me to go through. Lets me honest being told you cant work out and have to slowly slowly ease back in (slower than I could have ever imagined) makes the depression bug creep up. I have turned to all my old vices to comfort me through it and I am hoping that I can get back to running and doing weights as soon as I get clearance. I know it will be hard to get back into but I am ready and prepared to go!

With Avery home for summer I have big goals this season and it is to really get her out and enjoying the summer instead of leaning towards my isolationism that I tend to enjoy. We have signed up for several fun activities around the area and hopefully can get more involved with what they are doing!

My plans for the summer and posting on the blog:

• Share my journey of getting back into a fitness minded attitude
• Share my thoughts on my mind as I get back into working out, all of the ups and downs.
• My journey of getting the girls out more during the summer.
• and some little peaks at house projects, food I am making and everyday life!

fixing my food

(Breakfast: Italian Sausage, Strawberries, Blueberries and Cinnamon)

I have had some ups and downs over the past few years. I have come a very long way from the person I was in 2008 but I have had set backs over the past year. For the first 8 months after my injury I felt great and while I wasn't running I still was clean eating and exercising in one way or another. By the time that summer rolled around I pretty much limited my running and exercising in general. We went on vacations and I went on a downward fall of feeling like a failure.

(Lunch: hamburger, avocado and salsa)

I tend to have zero self control and my passion driven from loss was what drove me for so long. That passion fell off with an injury and getting back to things has been long and hard for me. I have trouble motivating myself, I have trouble controlling myself and I have trouble truly caring for myself.

(dinner: homemade chicken noodle soup and ketchup, weird but worth it)

As I work back into my running schedule and start my bar method challenge, I am going to really make sure that what I am eating is healthy and clean, because I honestly believe this is the way I should be eating and my family should be eating.

I am doing a couple of things to make sure that I stay on track here, I am working FitBody during the Bar Challenge, I am participating in my friends DietBet, she challenged Food Bloggers and her friends to join and its a group effort to lose weight! Lastly I am putting everything in my food log. This is always the thing that holds me totally accountable!

If you are on myfitnesspal please send me a friend invite, I would love all the push I can get! I am not totally worried about losing weight but more so getting my eating and workout schedule right again.

Linking up with WIAW.

changes..

After starting this blog up to help me train for my marathon, I have a kink in the plans  My plan was to run a marathon up in MN but with something happening the week before the marathon, Brian wont be able to go with me to my first marathon that is almost 10 hours away.

I am not sure what I should do, go up by myself, run my first marathon alone?  I do have some friends going up so I will get to see when I get to Duluth but I just dont know about the traveling and rooming alone thing.

I am still trying to figure out what I am going to do and figure out the best plan for us. I thought of finding a marathon closer and I cant seem to find many around the midwest during the summer. I might just run 26.2 on my own or find a virtual one, or even create one but at this moment I am still not sure what is going to happen.

The good thing is I have another marathon schedule for fall in this area if worse comes to worse. Either way I am getting back into things and hopefully everything will work out.

Have you had to change plans for a big race you were planning on? Have you traveled a far distance alone for a big race?